Today is one of those days where I just don't know what to do. I feel like my brain is going one hundred miles a hour and I don't know how to slow down. Have you ever woke up and just wanted to disappear because u sense that your day will end up being a waste of time, well more times that none I have woke up and have had that same feeling. Since the day that me and my wife have found out that we are going to be having a new baby, the first for the both of us, I don't feel like disappearing anymore. I have found a new motivation for life and for success. I have developed a love in my heart for someone who isn't even hear yet and I don't know how to contain the excitement I have deep in my heart. You may wonder, why do you want to disappear? You have a wife and family. I don't want to disappear in that sense because I love my family and I love my wife with all my heart but sometimes your feelings can consume you and your thoughts. I think that deep down I am scared because I don't know if I will have what it takes to be a good father. After growing up without my dad I vowed that I will never ever not be there for my kids. Which brings me to the topic of the day........ DADDY WASN'T THERE
You ever watched Austin Powers when he sings his song "DADDY...... DADDY WASN'T THERE......TO CHANGE MY UNDERWHERE, TAKE ME TO THE FAIR...... ETC" That's a funny song yes I know but its reality. There are so many kids out there without a father figure to guide them and teach them right from wrong. From one man to another if you have the balls to go out and get someone pregnant than you should have the balls to take care of business and do right by your kids. You may not like the woman you have a baby with but you liked her when she was laid up in your bed and now you have a baby, well guess what fucker you have a baby and now you have to be there for your child from here on out. There have been countless times that kids have had to grow up without a FATHER, and yes some do turn out good and some simply are just little shits because they had no one there to whoop there ass when they got out of hand. If you are reading this and thinking who the fuck is this guy to sit here and talk shit and you don't even have a baby...... Well you are right, but I know the difference of handling your responsibilities and leaving your kids out to dry. Now if you are reading this and you have kids that you dont see or take care of like you should ........ WHAT THE FUCK.
To all the dads out there that handle there shit and raise there kids right ..... GOOD JOB. The world is a crazy place to live and even a harder place to raise a child, with all the crime, drugs, etc... But like I said before if you have the BALLS to make a baby then you should have the BALLS to raise one.
